Kanye West - Monster (Official Video)

when they post a vid with better quality i will have it up ASAP!

Fruition

just finished the official tracklisting for Volume 2: LOST ...i cant believe im almost done. i guess it has been a while since Volume 1: Heroes, but...damn. and even though i still have 4 songs to record, i just feel like im seeing all the hard work come to fruition. feels good...

i had/im having a lot of fun with this one. i mean, i did go through a period of time when i had the worst case of writers' block known to man. but with new experiences come new verses, at least thats how it works for me #kanyeshrug. someone once told me that even though it may suck sometimes, you often have to go through  some tough shit in order to be inspired. i guess he was right...whoever he was.

all in all, i just feel like ive grown, as corny and cliche as that may sound. ive written about actual happenings and people. i just feel like you get a good glimpse at the person ive grown into from February til now, what ive gone through. i feel like i can remember every moment that ive written about and where i was when they happened, what i was feeling and thinking, and where i was when i started typing words (oh, how technology has changed us!).

with that being said, i cant wait to start on my first LP, which im going to call Worth the Wait. Josh and i have started the early stages of planning and production. ive already gotten a few things written...i feel like im on a roll and i have lots to write about. new highs, new lows, new outlooks on new situations...overall INSPIRED! just feel like im at a creative peak right now, giving honest words about honest things. just...its hard to even put in words sometimes. good feeling...

Yeah, I Did

Merry Christmas Bitches

Rick Ro$$ - Ashes to Ashes

...HARD

download here!!!

Rita Ora...once again

i really dont think i cant get enough...

So Glad He's Back...Real Rap

Weezy F Baby

B.o.B - No Genre

click this muhfuckin link RIGHT NOW!!! This is seriously one of the best mixtapes ive heard all year...i might like it a little bit better than his actual album. its a bit more street, more Atl hip hop. you wont be disappointed...

bitches!

2 OLD dudes fighting

just listen to the noise one guy makes at 0:16...HILARIOUS

Fast 5

...ohhhhhhhh shit!

Cleveland Post Lebron

this summarizes the season Cleveland's having after LeBron...sorry.

Josh King - Ransom Beats

ok, so my boy is putting some of his beats up for sale. very unique, new shit.

however, i get first dibs, sorry. #kanyeshrug

"i made this beat, BIOTCH!"

Fall For Your Type - Jamie Foxx ft. Drake

song, video, real shit

Rita Ora...again

 cant get over this chick...ooooooooweeeeeeeee!

THOR

fuckin Thor...

BlackBerry Pics

some of these are from a long time ago...but who cares?

thought this was comical

like father like son

i was Tiger Woods for Halloween

T.I. feat. Rick Ross - Pledge Allegiance

this shit goes WAY too hard...

Transformers: Dark of the Moon

So...Let's Try That Again

just got around to reading my posts from last night...wow. needless to say, i went off a little haha

here are some of my favorite excerpts:
- "i should probably point out that fact that i am highly under the influence...well, some influencese*."
- "...and i think that may be it for tonight. good muh-fuckin night, damnit."
- "...the girl i've recently fallen in like (yes, "like"...)..."

i swear, i crack myself up sometimes!

but on a serious note, i cant be doin that shit. that is what i like to call commiting a BUI (Blogging Under the Influence). i feel like people read that and thought i was in this foul mood, my bitch just left me, left the crumb-snatchers, and took the xbox or something. the crazy part is that i was in a great mood! i had a fucking blast last night...and all i did was eat chinese, watch lebron go ham on the cavs, drink some jim beam (obviously more than enough), and relax! really dont know where all that came from...

dont get me wrong, i meant what i wrote, i just dont think i did things in the best way (another lebron reference? ...nah, i'll pass). i kinda made an ass outta myself. i mean, i dont want people to feel like im this asshole who hates the world and only has negative things to say...thats not me. im a really happy person! i love my life, the people in it, and i dont regret anything ive ever done! however...im still goin off this month. uncencored rex is something everyone needs to witness...just how that goes #kanyeshrug

just wanted to clear some things up. im happy, damnit!

*notice i spelled "influences" wrong...hahaha!

For Steph... (pt. 3)

ok, i think this is the end of my series of blogs for the night.

this one's all about my current/future outlook on life. i (recently) tried to be what normal beings are. i (recently) tried to do what normal beings do. however, i think (recently), that i should go back to do what i used to do.

over the past year, ive been one of the most logical beings on the planet (yes, i feel like i can say that...if you disagree, fuck you!). however, over the past couple of weeks, ive tried to get back in touch with the "human" side of me. needless to say, that didnt work...

so heres topic #3.1: i wish i could say all of the things i wish i could say. i know ive mentioned this in a past blog but i feel its nesessary to mention it again. however, this is more about my personal confidence and less about the subject matter. i wish i could look certain people in the eye and just say what i think of them. i always say that if it was my last day at work, id go off on everyone there and tell them how i really feel. im sure im not the only one...but how many of us actually would. i guess this goes back to being real (topic #2.2).

i just wish i had the balls to tell people what i really felt about them. i wish i had the balls to tell one of my closest friends that his words hold no weight with me. i wish i had the courage to tell one of my ex's that i wish i would've never fucked things up between us (even though it taught me a lot). i wish i was man enough to tell the girl i've recently fallen in like (yes, "like"...) with that i no longer have any interest in her whatsoever and dont want anything to do with her at all...i wish i actually felt that way. basically, i wish i was the way i acted! i put on this front like everything's ok and that im cool with everyone when im not. i cant say im being fake, its just that i have a tendency of pushing things aside and letting them build up until i cant handle them anymore. like i put it to my boy E yesterday, its like a fly buzzing past your face. at first, its not big deal, but it just becomes more annoying the more you have to put up with it.

but i have come a serious conclusion: im going off this month. im gonna do everything i want to without a care of what anyone else thinks about it. i have to live for me and no one else. if everyone else is happy and im not, what good does that do?! so im gonna make me happy, no matter what. if everyone else is pissed or offended, thats their problem. the people who really love and accept me will be by my side and those are the people that really count. like i say in one of my soon-to-be-released verse, "im living my fucking life just like a party/ and if u aint invited then im sorry". thats just how its gotta fucking go from now on. ive been putting other people's interests and feelings before mine...and thats just a mistake. so, as of now, i suggest you prepare for the uncensored version of me. if you're easily offended, keep you're distance. i just really dont give a fuck anymore.

...and i think that may be it for tonight. good muh-fuckin night, damnit.

For Steph... (pt. 2)

i should probably point out that fact that i am highly under the influence...well, some influencese.

and yet again, this isnt really "for steph"...even though she is the shit...

"Topic #2" of the night...well, actually, i have some shit to say relating to the last post. last night me and my boy E had a long ass convo (shit was funny too) about some real shit. long story short, i will never do what i thought id do regarding you. im over it...and i cant say i really want to talk to you or see you in the near-to-decent future.

moving on..."topic #2": ive realized that people are going to do what they want to do no matter what or who may be in there presence and/or life. the words "friendship" and "family" mean different things to different people. no matter what you think, others are going to be the way they are. i mean, sometimes the people closest to you do the dirtiest shit to you. what do you do in that situation? do you bring it up immediately? do you freak out and make a big issue out of something that may be minor? what happens if what you're noticing that its an ongoing problem?

this is where the word "love" comes into play (we can call this "topic #2.1"). ive seen that word thrown and tossed around without real meaning and its really starting to piss me off. if you say it, mean it. maybe my problem with it comes from that fact that sometimes it means 2 different things to the different people. i know that i only use it in a serious manner. and i get somewhat upset when people use it and i dont feel like they're on the same page as me. if you know me, know me.

ok...topic #2.2: be real. if you have something to say to somebody, fucking say it. by all means, make it as pleasing as possible (especially if you care for that person), but dont bullshit and lie. dont give sorry ass excuses that you'll only contradict later. i feel like the lack of realness is my biggest pet-peeve with society today. if you want me to care about you, be real! if you're not real, i simply wont care!

For Steph... (pt. 1)

...since she is one of the only ones that read this. in all actuality, its not really for Steph but we had a convo about my blog recently...well, whatevs...

anyways, if anyone IS actually reading this, there are gonna be like 2 or 3 posts in a row...deal with it! sorry

as of recent, ive realized something about myself. and i cannot give a legit reason as to why this happens...but, oh well. i have this habit of becoming completely infatuated with things. i let if completely consume my everyday life and i end up wasting valuable time (lets just call this "Topic #1").

it doesnt matter whether its music, a tv show, a person, whatever; i cant help but just being focused on one noun (person, place, or thing). for example (and i know others have noticed), whenever one of my favorite musical artists come out with a new cd, i cant help but to put that shit on repeat (even tho, i do feel like i have a pretty good opinion on what good music is).  i'll play that shit nonstop for like 3 weeks. i'll also create a lot of music in a certain category for a long while if im into it. last year i spent a whole month on a single song just because i was into that style at the moment (and i was super sick...i also watched a whole season of Heroes in like...less than a week).

however, its not just music. i do this with everything. especially when it comes to women...well, as of recent. i seem to get caught up on one girl and then, in the longrun, i realize that it was all a waste of time. i mean, im one of those people that only acts on certain emotions and impulses. maybe its just my logic being off for some reason or a another, but this isnt doing any good for anybody. the longer this stage seems to last, the more time i end up wasting.

i mean, i feel like i have a leg up on the situation since im noticing it (the first step is admitting you have a problem). id like to think that im logical (there goes that word again...) enough to notice my faults and try to build off of them. but, who knows? maybe its just what im supposed to do? maybe it runs in my family (i mean, god knows they've made several mistakes)? idk, i just know that im growing from it whether or not i notice it immediately.