I Wasn't Prepared

Yay! Another bitchy rant of a blog post by Rex! Well, I suggest that if you have a problem with it you can stop fucking reading this shit and/or go choke on a dick!

With that being said, I shall proceed...

So, I understand that people fall out of touch for tons of reasons. Sometimes it's immediate, other times it's gradual. Either way, looking back on it you can usually find a definite reason as to why it happened. Recently, I've fallen out of touch with someone really close to me. Why? I have no fucking idea! And I must say that it kinda hurts. Mutual friends have explained that I haven't done anything to cause this, but due to my semi-pessimistic view on things, I'm not so convinced. And what makes it worse is that I don't feel like things will ever be like they used to be. I mean, like I said before, if there was a definitive reason for this, I'd probably be less upset about it. Either way, there's nothing I can really do about it now. Moving on...

People wonder why I'm so hesitant when it comes to trusting in others. Well, from what I've seen, shit isn't as black and white as it seems. Nobody is as trustworthy as they make themselves out to be, including myself. With that being said, it's just hard for me to go along with what I hear. Like someone said a long ass time ago, believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see. This saying, especially recently, has been proving itself to be right...oh well. I believe in what/who I choose to believe in, so fugg it!

Something I've been depressing myself over as of late: the fact that I haven't accomplished anything since high school. I mean, I've made tons of plans and goals and I haven't gotten anywhere. However, I've reached a conclusion recently that kinda struck a chord with my current mind; if I don't have my shit together, how do I expect anyone to take me seriously. Good thing I've figured most of my shot out...only bad part is that it involves me starting completely over by myself. And I'm not sure if I'm ready or will be ready for that. I guess we'll see and I hope everything works out as well as possible.

Well, I just wanted to vent and I feel better now that did. Goodnight and I hope tomorrow (well, today) is a s good as I hope it'll be!

Smooth Move

It's Great To Be A Gamecock

seriously cant wait until football season!

Drums: DONE!!!

Really excited to say that all o the drum tracks for the Ancora records are done! Still got some mixing to do but most of that will happen after all the other music is recorded. Just excited to have the first step completed. I feel like everything else will flow smoothly now, crazy excited. Now it's on to scratch guitars, then on to bass.

By the way, I can't wait to get to these guitars tracks! Changes to older ahit, finalizing newer shit! Ahhh, I can't fucking wait!!! It's crazy how just adding in a harmony here or there can change the entire dynamic of a whole song, especially with some of the older songs. And the musicality of some of the parts in the new stuff?! "Oooooh shit, Clarence Carter!" Needless to say, I'm ready to shred shit!

The craziest part of all this, at least for me, is writing lyrics and melodies. It's been so long since I've done it. I've been in the rap realm for the past 3 years, so getting back into this is strange for me. However, I've written the large part of 2 songs in the past week, and (in my head at least) they're gonna sound fucking fantastic, especially with Jade's tone and ideas I'm sure he'll bring to the table. I can't wait hear the finished product, but at the same time, I'm looking forward to going thru the entire recording process, especially since that's what I wanna do for the majority, if not, all my professional career! Super anxious! "Put me in coach, I'm ready to play!"

"There's An App For That!"

My official first blog post from my iPhone. Probably one of the more convenient apps, at least in my case.

So, as you may know, Josh and I have been hard at work...drinking. Hahaha nah, but we've been hard at work with the new Ancora recordings. Almost all done with drums, only a few fills away. Trust me, shit's getting super real! Probably gonna be one of the most exciting projects I've ever been a part of!

Next, we have bass. Should be really fun playing around with tones, dissecting and rearranging parts and shit. I love that stuff! I'm probably gonna start on scratch guitars this week. However, once we get to the guitar work?! Oooooooh SHIT! That's when the real fun begins! I've added so many technical elements to the guitar work, some of which Josh hasn't even heard yet. In fact, there are 2 brand new songs ("Amalgamation" and "My Favorite Part is the Ending") that are going to blow his mind! We recorded the drums and I remember Josh playing a part back and saying, "this shit is ridiculous!" Like Bart Scott put it best, "CAN'T WAIT!"

It's also looking like our friend Jade is going to lend his vocal talents for the recordings. Lyrics are slowly being written and I'm anxious to see how his voice will enhance the music! He's done a couple demos with us before and I know this shit's gonna be epic.

This does mean I've once again put the EP on hold once again. Just too much to work on with recording Ancora stuff to split my time. However, I haven't given up on the project. I still rap those verse everyday just so they stay fresh. As soon as the Ancora records are done, I'll release "...You're Welcome" within the month following (it's that close to being done).

Ok, just a little update on recent happenings...from the iPhone lol

Mercy - Kanye West, Big Sean, Pusha T, and 2 Chainz

G.O.O.D.

...enough said.

The Storm Was Fitting

Ok, so I have a lot to get off my chest. Bear with me, this may be all over the place, but frankly, I just don't give a balls...

First off, I need for people to be real with me. I don't care who you're bullshitting, don't pull that shit with me. I'm not an idiot, and honestly it insults me.

Moving on...

As of recent, I've been on edge. And some people may think I'm "off my game" or I "need to pull myself together." Then, I thought about it...I'm not really being any different than I usually am. To some people I'm being different, but those are the people that claim to know me. The people that actually know me know that I'm not this "robot" that some people think I try to be (which is bullshit. Just because I believe in logic, doesn't mean that I'm a heartless asshole). I don't want to get into anything specifically, just wanted to put that idea out there. It just really bothers me when people tell me what I'm thinking or what I want. I tend to feel strongly about that kind of thing. Maybe you don't know everything about me...food for thought.

Another pet peeve as of recent: paranoia. Don't get me wrong, I believe in a certain kind of paranoia, I used to be one of the most paranoid people ever...still kinda am. But there are 2 different kinds of paranoia: the introverted kind and the extroverted kind. In my opinion, the introverted kind is nothing more than having a guilty conscious. I feel as if this kind of paranoia is purely insecurities taking their toll, whether it's because of something you did or just a lack of belief in yourself. I, on the other hand, am the extroverted kind of paranoid. I am very secure in myself and I'm very confident in the choices I make (for the most part). It's OTHER people I'm not secure in. I trust nearly no one, and I always feel like people have ulterior motives (even when they don't...it often gets me into trouble). However, even though both cause issues, I feel as if being secure in yourself is much more valuable than the opposite. For example, I've used my general distrust in others as motivation to prove myself beyond what I know I'm capable of. I mean, I have learned to be more open-minded towards others, and I've learned that to get what I truly want, I can't do it on my own. I just have to choose the appropriate company. In generall, I still only truly trust in myself, and that's fucked some things up for me, but, for the most part, I've rarely been proven wrong. And, at the end of the day, I'd rather be secure in myself and know that I haven't done anything to make me doubt myself, than to think that everything I've done is questionable, whethere they are or not.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I fucking love me and generally accept the choices I've made. And, for the most part, could give a fuck what other people do or thinkd. Can you say the same?

And on that note, you're welcome.

Bitches...