With that being said, I shall proceed...
So, I understand that people fall out of touch for tons of reasons. Sometimes it's immediate, other times it's gradual. Either way, looking back on it you can usually find a definite reason as to why it happened. Recently, I've fallen out of touch with someone really close to me. Why? I have no fucking idea! And I must say that it kinda hurts. Mutual friends have explained that I haven't done anything to cause this, but due to my semi-pessimistic view on things, I'm not so convinced. And what makes it worse is that I don't feel like things will ever be like they used to be. I mean, like I said before, if there was a definitive reason for this, I'd probably be less upset about it. Either way, there's nothing I can really do about it now. Moving on...
People wonder why I'm so hesitant when it comes to trusting in others. Well, from what I've seen, shit isn't as black and white as it seems. Nobody is as trustworthy as they make themselves out to be, including myself. With that being said, it's just hard for me to go along with what I hear. Like someone said a long ass time ago, believe none of what you hear and only half of what you see. This saying, especially recently, has been proving itself to be right...oh well. I believe in what/who I choose to believe in, so fugg it!
Something I've been depressing myself over as of late: the fact that I haven't accomplished anything since high school. I mean, I've made tons of plans and goals and I haven't gotten anywhere. However, I've reached a conclusion recently that kinda struck a chord with my current mind; if I don't have my shit together, how do I expect anyone to take me seriously. Good thing I've figured most of my shot out...only bad part is that it involves me starting completely over by myself. And I'm not sure if I'm ready or will be ready for that. I guess we'll see and I hope everything works out as well as possible.
Well, I just wanted to vent and I feel better now that did. Goodnight and I hope tomorrow (well, today) is a s good as I hope it'll be!
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