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On Fire Remix ft. Lil Wayne

had a little fun with this one! "On Fire Remix ft. Lil Wayne" right here!!! #freeweezy

How Should I Begin This...

ahhhhhhhhh, i dont like the way ive been feeling lately. well, in all honesty, i dont like that i'm feeling anything. i think my balance of logic and realism is...well...off balance and its almost backfiring on me. im reacting to things differently...and im not too excited about it.

ive never been naive, never been overly trusting or anything like that. shit, there are only about 2 people in the world i trust, one of them being my dad. but there are certain things i believe in that have been letting me down as of late.

ive been trying to blame it on stupid shit (such as forcing myself to relate to the lyrics of the new Chiodos album*...lame, i know) but i think my realism is starting to overpower my logic.

ive always known that people are never as good as they make themselves out to be. i always thought that if i knew this fact id have a leg up on any situation. besides the fact that i lost sight of this (as of recent), i think a lot of things have been piling up. whether it be people's repeated actions, how people deal with conflict, whatever. shits just getting really close to home. i guess its my fault for letting it get so close anyway.

needless to say, im a little fed up and done with it, otherwise i wouldnt be posting these little bitchy blogs. i guess thats what it here for but i dont enjoy whining. i guess its one of my only outlets right now. either way, you get to know me better. i think im gonna post a little bit more about myself anyway instead of JUST music and whatnot. hope you enjoy...and if not, you can suck my fuckin balls. that is all...

It's Been A Long Year

It's not often that I'm reminded that I'm human.

I pride myself on being as logical as possible, not acting out of emotion but thinking and doing what makes sense. To some it's just me "having my guard up all the time." For a person to be in the situations I've been in it makes sense (See? Logic).

However, as of recent things have been going differently. I dont know whether it's because of something I'm doing differently or something in my subconscious. Either way, I'm not liking it. It's getting to a point where I think I'm thinking too much and not saying enough. In any case, I'm losing site of logic and its making me feel...well, human again. I don't think I'm anything better than human, I just feel as if most human beings lack logic.

I mean, I think I'm missing out on certain things. Maybe that's where it's coming from. Are the positive things I may or may not be missing out on more important than all the negative shit that most people wish they didn't have to deal with? Who knows? I'm sure it will all work out eventually. Until then, I'm gonna keep living as logically as possible.

I guess it's just been a long year...

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