A Harsh Taste of Reality

I know it's been a while and quite frankly I don't even know if anyone still reads this thing...anyway, moving on.

This blog originally started as a way to get my music out to the world. Over the years it's turned into something else. Music, anything that catches my interest, and superhero stuff. Well, as of about 24 hours ago, I lost one of my real life superheroes.

I was hit with some heavy news around 9am yesterday that my grandfather, William H. Murray, passed away. My dad told me. I really don't think I can ever remember my dad crying in front of me. Soon after he told me he left me to process things. It hit me like a the swing of Thor's hammer (had to put that in there). I honestly had not cried in over 3 years. I curled up in my bed. Venus, my dog, followed me and snuggled up next to me as if she knew I was hurting, the only smart decision she's made recently lol. After that, I went along with the rest of my day to the best of my ability. And now, nearly 24 hours later, we're here.

Honestly, my main concern was immediately focused on 2 people: my grandmother (his wife of over 70 years) and my sister. No, that wasn't a typo, my grandparents were married for around 74 years, if my math is correct. They got married when my granddad was 17, and they often joked that the marriage might not even be legal since he was underage. And my sister, ever since I can remember, was connected to his hip. They talked at least once everyday, and she was torn up about not being able to come home to see him earlier because of the flooding in Columbia.

Needless to say, today was a bit tough for me. I lost someone who watched me grow up from birth and was an integral part of making me the person I am today. I lost the man who used to beat me in foot races across the field at the age of 60+. I lost half of the only relationship I've ever seen work in my entire life. They don't make people like him anymore. I lost a part of myself yesterday. It sucks. It hurts. I don't know how I'm making it, but I am. It's what he would've wanted. It's what my family needs right now. It's what I need right now.

So, that's how my day has gone. Of course I ended it with a few beers and Avengers: Age of Ultron (for the 1,371,712th time), and tomorrow I'll start it with a gym session. Life goes on, it has to and no matter what I'm feeling, it will. Just do one thing for me: tell your loved ones how much you love them, how much they matter to you. No one is invincible, as much as you want them to be. Just be kind to one another.

I love you all. Goodnight.
Rex