so, the birthday was a success for the most part. cool people, fun times. got nearly everything i wanted, most of what i needed and WAY too many facebook notifications! sorry again if i missed your phone calls or didnt respond to your texts...wasnt dealing with that shit.
however, even after a few shots of Patron and several beers, i still felt a little...well, like something's missing. i mean, its understandable and pretty much impossible to avoid. i just wish i had the solution. i always seem to have the answers to other peoples' issues, but i cant seem to find my own. eh, i guess that how it goes.
i guess im just being patient. seems like theres a contradiction there, right? people say that you should fight for the things you want, but there's also a saying regarding, well, the opposite (something about the more you reach, the further away things get...yeah, something like that). that helps, right? haha funny how things work out like that!
soooooooo, i was having a convo with one of my good friends and i guess she's kinda in the same spot...maybe on the opposite side? anyway, skipping all the fluff and unnecessary details, i came to an extremely sound conclusion: sometimes people don't realize what they're missing, even when its staring them in the face. and there's really nothing you can do about it. and this brings me to another issue.
some believe that its never okay for a person to settle for less, in any situation. go for gold, right? so, what happens if you go for gold but your "gold" is possibly only settling for you? nobody would ever admit to that because, as humans, we tend to be biased in favor of ourselves. but in this situation, what should you do? do you then settle? or do you find yourself in that other situation where you dont know whether to be proactive or patient? i find it a bit ironic that as im typing this Styles P (@therealstylesp) just tweeted: "Guard your spot or get it took!" oh, the questions the world asks you!
all in all, i think im a bit stuck. by nature (well, over the past year really), im a patient person. but i think im a bit sick of that. i kinda feel like im missing out on some shit by being so lax (no pun intended...i should use that in a line haha im such a rapper!). anyway, we'll just have to wait and see what happens, right?
on a completely different note, im working on something special for my birthday, an exclusive track. it'll probably be the last release before the mixtape (Volume 2: LOST) drops...which will hopefully be soon.
oh yeah, i almost forgot...IM 21, BITCHES!!!
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