"...And With Action Came Anxiety"

Let's start with a quick recap, shall we?

Feb 14, 2010: "Volume 1: Heroes"
Jan 1, 2011: "Volume 2: LOST"

...nothing since.

Needless to say, but it's been quite a long time. I must admit that the thought of returning to rap is a bit heavy for me. Taking such an extended hiatus...so much has changed. I'm nervous...or anxious, should I say. I'm anxious to hear myself after 2+ years, let alone to let others hear me. I'm anxious to see where this process takes me. I've been struggling with doubt, whether it be in my own talents or how others will receive it. What if I can't write anymore? What if I don't sound the same? What if I hate what I create? What if I stop rapping again? So many questions...

...yet only one answer:

Fuck it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Oh, the intricacies of a comeback!

First off, where did I go? Well, I got to a point where what I was making had become less fun and more work. I started caring way too much about other things rather than enjoying myself and being true to myself and my craft. I'm still sitting on tracks that have the potential to be amazing. The stories (to me) are outdated, almost foreign. "...You're Welcome": inspiration that hit me 2 years ago. Where is it now? The same place it was last summer. I'm still going to release that, by the way.

I could've stayed gone from everything rap/hip-hop. I never abandoned music, so why come back to something that started as a complete joke? What's my reasoning? Is it popularity? My arrogance? A sick passion for boosting my ego while belittling others? A need to prove that I'm better than 95% of the kids around here (or elsewhere for that matter)? A need to get back to the old me? The fact that every time I walk into my room I see the very microphone I used when I recorded my first two mixtapes? Was it the hour long conversation I had a week ago while watching the season recap of "The Bachelor"? Is it bitches? Money? Food? Liquor?

All of the above, my friends.

But most importantly, I have so much to say. I have so many stories from then till now and this is my way of telling those stories. Like I said, I never stepped away from MUSIC. I've been slaving away at this Ancora project for months. However, it's just not the same. Saying the kinds of things I need to say in that genre...it's so limiting. With rap, it makes me use words in a more creative fashion. It makes me smarter. Besides, I liked the asshole it allows me to be. And with all the ammunition I've stored up over the past couple of years, I have some people to piss off.

All in all, I thinks it's time to get back to business. So I'm getting started just how I got it started before...

Hi. I'm Rex. And I rap.