Summer Recap

Sending this from the iPhone since I don't have Internet in the new house yet :/

So, this summer has probably been the most dynamic time of my entire life. The highs, the lows, the confusing moments...so much to wrap my head around when I look back on it. Hard to really put it into words...but I'll try. I mean, that is what this is for, right?!

So, first, the good parts.

I really think I met some great new people this summer, people that are gonna be in my life for a long time. And with these people I experienced some of the wildest times in my 22 years...and the drunkest lol! Thanks to these new friends (and mostly Josh) my alcohol tolerance has become something I can only describe as "Hulkish." I also grew as a friend this summer, at least from a mental standpoint. I really started to value the friends that have been there for me through the years. Not that I didn't before, but I feel like it kinda hit me for real this summer. I'm really luck to have the people I have in my life and these people know without a doubt who they are.

Evan and I also moved into a house! Finally out of the apartment era and rented out a small house, perfect for tailgating and whatnot! It's older but it definitely has personality, and when we're done "customizing" it, it's gonna be dope as balls! However, I've had the place to myself for the most part since Big E has been at the beach taking care of business, but I can already tell that it's gonna be one helluva year ahead of us!

Not all of the good shit has been social or external. I think some of the best parts have been internal. I became re-obsessed with my music again, although I haven't released anything, whether it be rap or otherwise, in almost over a year. I do, however, have a lot of shit (in my head and on my computer) that will be coming to your ears soon. I also found a ton of motivation to get in good shape. I was working out at least 4 times a week, taking in a ton of healthy calories (I was/am trying to gain weight). Lately, I've been slacking a bit, but I blame that on the recent change of location.

However, not everything this summer has been all good. Not gonna dwell on a lot of the bullshit, but here are some highlights: nothing is ever nearly as perfect as you think, being in debt is probably one of the worst feelings ever, humans are natural liars, the old cliche that you never know what you got till its gone, and being naive in the world is way more common than you think.

But the most disappointing part of my summer, of course, involves a girl...go figure. I fucked around and unintentionally fell for someone, possibly in love (I can admit it now cuz it's over...obviously I was too much of a pussy to admit it when it mattered). Unfortunately, I think I was the only party that felt that way anyway. And shit always gets complicated when there are lies involved (not on my part). I won't go into to detail but what I'm getting at is that the shit hit hard as fuck when it ended. And I can't even tell you when or how it did! It just...did. I mean, what it boils down to, in my opinion, is that I just wasn't "familiar" enough. And that's cool, just wish I would've known that from the start. Instead I feel like I got bullshitted. And I could say I'm not bitter, that I'm completely over it, and that I think the correct decisions were made, but then I'd be a liar. And I'm a lot of things, and a liar IS one, but only on certain occasions. This is not one of those occasions.

Anywho, I'm looking forward to the future. I've learned a lot this summer and I plan on applying all that I've learned to new endeavors in the fall, and beyond that. I've got a ton of plans, lots of dreams that I WILL see come true. Being as optimistic as a realist can be, ya know?

Anyway, I'm gonna head to bed. Glad I got a lot of that off my chest.

Goodnight...

...ya punk bitches.